After years of careful driving on the 14 Freeway, I was rear-ended Thursday morning where traffic goes from 80 mph to 0-5 mph for no apparent reason. I was able to slow down and stop with the cars in front of me. But, when I heard the dreaded screech of tires held hard by brakes. I looked up in my rear view mirror and saw the grey car behind me was not going to stop.
I had too much time! I had time to fully recognized that I had no path to get out of the way. My whole body tensed up. The grey car hit the right back side of my car, ripping my back bumper from its bolt into the trunk. The bumper stayed on because the trunk lid stayed locked down. Traffic allowed us to move from the fast lane to right shoulder.
I made a conscious decision to not be in reaction because I sure was full of unexpressed energy – adrenaline. I was not going to have any opinion about anything – just stay in the moment, acknowledging that I was shaky while we did the usual after-crash things.
I was so shaken and pumped with adrenaline that I sat in the safety of the wide shoulder for over 40 minutes, calling his insurance company, calling work to say I wasn’t coming in.
That right there was huge for me because the “old me” would have done a spiritual bypass. The old me would have done my own Science of Mind wholeness treatment and then off to work I’d go.
But, I know now that denying my feelings and telling myself that I’m OK when I’m not is a perversion of the Science Of Mind principle. Now I know that it’s OK to be in uncomfortable feelings, pain, even anger. And to know those feelings are included in wholeness.
Instead of confusing my body and mind by telling myself everything was OK when it wasn’t, I instead told myself,
Something happened (my car got hit from behind with me in it),
That event is over,
I made it.
I am not alone.
I am amazed by how healing it is to stay in the present moment. By allowing my feeling and pain and “uncomfortable-ness,” and not blocking them with a spiritual treatment, they moved through me much faster. Without judgment about my feelings and pain, the other driver, his insurance company, I just made an assumption that my highest good was unfolding.
And I have been able to see my highest good unfold quickly before me. The other driver’s insurance has told me that they are taking total responsibility for the accident and gave me instructions for getting my car fixed and taking care of my injuries.
I am not carrying any blame, shame or anger with me through the process. I am delighted that I won’t have anything to forgive or let go in the future because I’m not carrying it around with me right now.
In a correct use of Science of Mind, I know that God holds nothing against anyone. By just saying,
That event is over,
I made it.
I am not alone,”
I get to enter into a new experience of Principle, of God. It’s a new way of being for me – not over-thinking or judging, just absolutely trusting that my highest good is unfolding. Trusting God. Trusting myself!
This post is a Five Minute Talk presented on a Sunday morning or Wednesday night at the Granada Hills Center for Spiritual Living. Talks are given by Licensed CSL Practitioners who invest at least four years in learning and applying these concepts and ideas in their daily life. For more topics like this one, please join us at our Center for one of our Sunday services or for our Wednesday evening service at 7 PM.